Lavish Love

God-
I am amazed at you! You bring such joy! what a journey of discovery - I'm finding you to be real, present, flowing, a river of gifts and love. I want to dive in and splash and drink and laugh and enjoy.

I used to think you were stingy. Now I see your lavish ways. You love lavishly. You give gifts lavishly.

I feel something rising... I've been holding myself back. I'm not sure but I think that I've been waiting for meanness or coldness to be revealed... just when I trusted.

But you love me. You are intimately involved in my training, my up-bringing. I'm reeling from the sweetness of your instruction. My heart is bursting with joy!

I Cor chapter 4 brought on this prayer. Here I will include verses 7-8 (message translation).

For who do you know that really knows you, knows your heart? And even if they did, is there anything they would discover in you that you could take credit for? Isn't everything you have and everything you are sheer gifts from God? So what's the point of all this comparing and competing? You already have all you need. You already have more access to God than you can handle. Without bringing either Apollos or me into it, you're sitting on top of the world -- at least God's world -- and we're right there, sitting alongside you!